"But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it's better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you're fighting for."
In the last month I've seem to have gone through a roller coaster of emotions and experiences. I've gone through a self loathing and self loving battle. I've had to witness death and birth, all within my family and with those I love. I've had to say hello to my new baby niece, and goodbye to my best friend and golden retriever of over 13 years. With every hello there comes a goodbye. The bittersweet circle of life.
I try to make an active effort at looking forward. Not keeping my head stuck in the past, or too busy flustered with what the future will bring. It's what we all must do, make the best out of what we've got. Go head first into every challenge and accept that things will get better. Because they must get better. We can sit, and hope and pray and wish...but what's going to make our days get better? Is if we go out there and make our days better.
And with each loss comes the realization of the great simplicity of life. Surround yourself with people and things that make you happy and feel good. It's honestly as simple as that. If there are things in your life that are holding you down, holding you back and bluntly, making you feel shitty, why in the world are you keeping them around? Why are you letting these people, these places, these feelings, control who you are going to be and how you are going to feel about yourself.
“Whatever career you may choose for yourself : doctor, lawyer, teacher, let me propose an avocation to be pursued along with it. Become a dedicated fighter for civil rights. Make it a central part of your life. It will make you a better doctor, a better lawyer, a better teacher. It will enrich your spirit as nothing else possibly can. It will give you that rare sense of nobility that can only spring from love and selflessly helping your fellow man. Make a career of humanity. Commit yourself to the noble struggle for human rights. You will make a greater person of yourself, a greater nation of your country and a finer world to live in.” - MLK
So stop, stop right there and let go of the junk. Let go of the baggage of your ex boyfriend. Get over the fact that you lost your job. Get rid of the idea that everyone is better than you and that you will never ever be enough. Forget the thought that you are too fat, or too thin, or too ugly or even too pretty to ever be more. This is rubbish, pure and slick rubbish. The bad stuff, it's always easier to hear, easier to say, easier to believe. So get rid of it. We all carry around this baggage, from place to place, relationship to relationship, moment to moment and they are doing nothing but clouding our vision for our absolute potential. Tell the lies and the stories and all that excess baggage you've been carrying around for all these years, that your done with them getting in the way with you living your life...
YOUR amazing, spontaneous, successful, happy and filled with love and adventure LIFE.
Get out there and live it. From here on out, your days will seem lighter.